We have found that if we sit still waiting for the call, we will go crazy! The negative whispers of "you're not good enough", "you'll never have a baby", "rejection"...become screams.
Its hard, everywhere we go there is someone with a baby or pregnant, in the news there are stories of horrible offenses against children, clinics are providing abortions, all the while, our open arms are left empty.
We do our best to stay busy and maintain some semblance of normalcy around the house, but we also live with hopeful expectation that today is the day. We have the crib built, the play pen set up, the swing ready to go. I've sewn cloth diapers, made a blanket and a teddy bear. We've bought some clothing, but not much, you can only buy so much yellow and green. I take daily doses of fenugreek and chaste berry to help induce lactation so we can nurse the baby. We have a car seat and monitor ready to be put into use. We have a name picked out. Everything is in order...we just wait.
I will continue to post about the waiting process, the struggles and hurdles, but hopefully not too many posts. I would much rather prefer to share the arrival of our little one and all the joys, fears and milestones associated with a baby.
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